So remember my weird really pissed of post, the one I wouldn’t allow y’all to comment on? And remember I said I wanted to see a psychiatrist but couldn’t seem to get to it? Well at the pressing of one of my dearest friends I finally got round to doing it.
Yeah, some weeks back I went to see one in a very informal type meeting. Her phone kept ringing and I also kept tweeting. My friend was there also I guess for moral support and its was in a public place not I some office where you lie down and talk incessantly about yourself and your feelings.
Infect the shrink did lot of talking and asking me questions that I sometimes couldn’t properly answer. Well it was merely an evaluative session, And at the end of it she told me what she thought was going on with me also she had some tests for me to take. I can’t remember their proper names but one was called the Heart test.
So from this session I can finally tell you what’s been up with me. My shrink tells me that I’m very angry. She told me that I need to find a way to deal with the anger and stop bottling all my feelings and stuff or I’ll explode sooner or later. She also said it was a good thing I saw a shrink before I could explode.
It almost happened once in church one day. I wanted to shout at the pastor because I was so angry at what he was saying. Weird, right? I had to leave the church for a few minutes before I could sit calmly again. What’s so scary is that the church was packed! What could posses me to even want to shout at anyone like that?
Also after the shrink gave me the test she deduced that I was also mildly depressed, which kind of shocked her. I guess the anger must have been more prominent. Do you guys those of you who’ve meet me think or see the anger?
I’m to see her again soon. She said that I need to change my mind set and she could help with that. I hope she can I really don’t like feeling this way, it can’t be health! Don’t worry on this one you can comment. I want to hear what you have say so pleased do. O and for those of you who’ve been missing me on twitter I think I’m making my come back today! Peace!