So anyway, I was thinking about the situation with Belinda and how things progressed from there. Remember I had said that I would try to repair my friendship with Belinda? Taking back to the levels of closeness we once enjoyed? Well this is kind of a status report.
I can tell you that things are not good! In fact if I was to get a grade it’d be F–! I don’t know why. Well, actually, I do. Its because I really don’t give a damn. I’ve let it deteriorate, decline, slip, slide, worsen, go downhill, regress, retrogress; go to rack and ruin, waste away or weaken (Yes I know all these words but I used a thesaurus) and I could care less.
So why is that I don’t care? I don’t know. I wish I did and I realise that it can’t be healthy at all to think like this. I know what it’d take though to accomplish it. It could start with me calling her, finding out what she’s been up to, telling her how much I missed her and that we should hang out. She’d probably ask almost the same things that I asked her. After this call I’d probably wait two or three days and call her again and ask her when we could hang out.
I could do all this but I won’t I’m at a point where chasing girls I had crashes on doesn’t matter nearly as much as it did. I look at it like this: friendship is a two way street.
I can’t I won’t be the only one struggling to repair something that takes two people to maintain. It’s not fair to me and I won’t subject myself to that. Not any more. Peace!!!